There’s no update about Euan Sharp, either on his Twitter accout or his blog. I’m an optimist, so I’m certain the reason he hasn’t updated is because he’s in Recovery getting used to his new heart!
(Gosh, I hope so…)
Euan’s last blog entry is all about the insidious nature of Congestive Heart Failure, and how it steals your world away. Little bit by little bit, inch by inch it will slowly shrink your world.
I’ll let Euan continue, he states it so well:
But that’s what happens with heart failure. Every now and again, your life shrinks a little. Sometimes it’s almost imperceptible. And other times it’s in leaps and bounds. First it dines on your independence. Then it gobbles up geography. It swallows up friendships. And drinks away your good times. It devours your ability to work. Then finishes off your your dignity. Just when you think your bubble couldn’t shrink anymore it does. And does again. And again. And again. Until you wake up one morning and your bathroom that’s ten feet away is suddenly too far to get to without some help.
But there eventually comes a point when there is nothing left to give up; Heart Failure has taken everything; and then it comes back wanting more. It wants the only thing you have left to give – your life. And that’s where Euan says no.
There’s a scene in the 1996 movie Star Trek: First Contact that, for me, encapsulates the the feelings of a person being forced to give up too much. It happens about two-thirds of the way through the movie… When pushed, Captain Picard’s resentment boils over:
“I will not sacrifice the Enterprise. We’ve made too many compromises already. Too many retreats. They invade our space and we fall back. They assimilate entire worlds and we fall back. Not again. This time the line must be drawn here. This far and no further!”
It’s a wonderful moment that resonates true for many people fed up losing ground again and again to a relentless disease. He might just as well have been talking about Diabetes or Parkinson’s, Alzheimer’s, Cancer, or Heart Failure. They all take and never give back. At first you don’t mind much, but by the end it’s a pretty shitty deal.
But Euan and the Transplant team have drawn their line in the sand.
This far, and no further.
March 17, 2010; 6:40 AM Eastern US Time: Still no news about Euan.